I get it now.....
Its only taken me since 2009ish to get it...
I wish I got it earlier; but at least it makes sense now...
So what in the world am I talking about?!....
I'll tell you...
You remember some of my older posts where I talk about how I have lost a lot of friends and people who have meant a lot to me? (if not sift through some of my posts would yea?)
Well I get it now, why I have lost so many friends. I am sure there is more to this then this one till revelation but none the less right now, where I am at in my life, this is the one that makes sense.
God has been preparing me for a big move.
Doesn't that make so much sense? lol Well yes and no. I would think that God would want me to have meaningful relationships with others but I am stubborn... like really stubborn!
So I think God needed a more not so subtle way of pointing me towards where I am suppose to go.
His way of doing this was introducing people in my life then letting them go (not my choice and aka what I call loosing my friendships). But I get it now.
I have been kinda chicken to make a move that I have been talking about since 2005 (10yrs). It seemed one thing after another kept putting things off. I would tell myself that I couldn't make this move because:
Who else has done that? (I'm sure there are a lot of you out there, that's okay means we aren't alone lol)
So does this mean we are dumb, obstinate or just plain blind/deaf? I think its a little of it all but that doesn't mean anything is wrong with us. I think it means we are able to see all the possibilities that are there dependent on what path we choose to take.
Here, for me, I was suppose to take a certain path and didn't want to believe/ trust that's the way I was suppose to really go. BUT....
I get it now and that's all that matters. lol
You are probably wondering what kind of move am I talking about?
Well this move required that I not be held back by close relationships, that I am not tied to any job or schooling or anything really. It's the kind of move that uproots your life.
That's all I am saying right now. I am keeping things under raps till more details are finalized. But...
I get it now. I get why God made me loose so much. He was pushing me towards this move and preparing me for what I would have to do.
Next time you keep feeling like you are loosing a lot or you feel lost or saddened about lost opportunities; ask yourself what is the bigger picture, what am I getting prepared for?
Till next time...
Happy Riding Ya'll,
Author: Courtney Rasbach
Courtney loves God, nature, horses, homemaking, essential oils, herbs, Yoga, and Natural horsemanship. Learn more about the author in her Bio section.
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