I really am lost without him. Really, I am lost without any horse. Now, I don't mean I am lost as in driving directions or can't find my keys kink of lost. I mean my identity of who I am is lost without them.
Do you have something like this in your life? I hope you do!
I really feel that our passion stems solely from this place of identity. When I was a young girl I remember seeing horses in the pasture. I didn't know what they were really. I didn't much care either. All I knew was that I needed to be around them and that it seemed I knew what they were and how to be around them without ever meeting them.
As time went on, I was able to start taking lessons and working with horses. It came naturally. Really. My mom used to tell me that she would have the hardest time getting me to sit up straight and tall while in a chair or standing, but if you put me on a horse man I had perfect posture. haha. That tells me right there that I was born to be on horseback. Don't you think?
So have you figured out what you were born to do yet? If you haven't that's okay, it'll come to you. It always does.
So I have never been someone that just sits on the sidelines when it comes to new experiences. I don't just jump right up and leap in but I do take part in different experiences. Whether it's new foods, new workout, new music, new people... I always try to give everything at least one chance. This is a great mentality to have but it also comes with a drawback.
When you make it a point to be culturally diverse and experience new things it can cause you to get confused. I like just about 90% of everything I try. So, it makes it hard to sort through everything is pick the things I want to have in my life on a daily bases. One simply cannot do everything, every single day of one's life.
I love: photography, painting, ceramics, crocheting, knitting, movies, running, BJJ, crossfit, weightlifting, horses, animals, vet medicine, cooking, gardening, shooting guns, reading, writing, helping others, canning, preserving food, making my own products, and soo much more! But I simply cannot do it all! I can't, no one can!
Through all the things I have tried throughout my life it has been hard to hold onto the things that matter most and make up my identity. I often found myself getting lost in an environment that was not fully true to who I was. I liked the environment and did well in it, but it wasn't fully who I was.
I said earlier in this post that it was pretty evident that I needed to be around horses.
Thus, I Am Lost Without My Horse.
Through all the years I will be honest, I have gotten lost on my path and found my way back and gotten lost again and found my way back. Now, I am working harder than ever to keep remembering where I belong and working everyday to make it more and more apart of my life. New experiences pop up all the time. There is no need to not experiences things but don't get caught up in being really good at painting when you should be spending your time learning to cook. Make Sense? You need to remember what makes you who you are down to the core. For me this is horses and the horse world.
So has any of this sounded familiar? Can you think of the one things that lights your fire in your soul? That one thing that seems so familiar to you?
Remember it. I struggle and get distracted by new things but never forget what makes you, you. You will always no matter what seem to keep making a circle back around to it. I just encourage you to limit how many circles you make through your life. ;)
Lots of Love,
Author: Courtney Rasbach
Courtney loves God, nature, horses, homemaking, essential oils, herbs, Yoga, and Natural horsemanship. Learn more about the author in her Bio section.
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